2 more days until ultrasound!

I’m assuming if I’m still feeling all these pregnancy symptoms I must be still pregnant and Baby C must still be the one sucking all of my energy. That’s okay baby, Momma is here for that!

Adam thought our scan was the 21ST and last night we were talking about it and he was like wait.. what? He was just telling his brother how he’d be feeling better in a few weeks after the scan- haha!

I can’t wait. 2. MORE. DAYS!!

(7 weeks 2 days today)

7 weeks!

Today I am 7 weeks pregnant. This weekend has had me napping A LOT. I’ve started to get night sweats, and since I don’t generally get those I looked them up. Apparently that happens when you’re pregnant? I’ve had exhaustion, cramping, heart burn, sore boobs off and on, and nausea. Seems in the morning when I wake up is when I feel the most ill. I’m thankful Thursday is right around the corner- while I’ve been keeping calm I really really want to see what’s going on down in my uterus.

My right side for the progesterone shots was SO PAINFUL so I switched to the left for the last 4 days? Now my left side is so painful so I’m switching back tonight. Adam gave me a good rub in that area last night but it hurts so much this morning.

I’ll take it if it means baby!

One week from today

One week from today I’ll be having my ultrasound. I can feel the crazy creeping in. I considered taking a pregnancy test this morning as I have one left over, but I didn’t. I hope I can make it until Thursday! I’m bouncing from being very confident to being terrified.

Adam and I had a talk last night and things are good now. He’s still keeping himself un-invested in this pregnancy until next week. He said he thinks when he sees the sonogram it will click for him. He never wants to feel like he did when we had our loss ever again. I told him I think it would hurt no matter what but hopefully we don’t have to find out the answer to that. I also made sure to reiterate that “not that pregnant” is not an accurate statement as the first trimester can be the hardest for some women!

I felt very ill yesterday. I went home from work and slept a few hours, per usual, and then had a normal few hours, then when I went to bed I swore I was going to vomit. I finally fell asleep. I had a lot of heartburn yesterday. Right now I feel “normal.”

I’m glad it’s almost the weekend.

 

6 weeks 4 days

Pregnancy brain is REAL.

It’s taking over. I do not feel like myself!

Yesterday I rescheduled my therapy appointment because I was so tired. I went home and slept for several hours. The exhaustion is overwhelming. I woke up every hour on the hour last night, and did not sleep well. Adam and I got into an argument before bed and that was that. We need to talk it out tonight. He used the phrase “not that pregnant” last night and I’m still pissed about it. Ugh.

This morning I almost backed into another car in my work’s parking lot- so embarrassing. Later my co worker came to me and said “Wings?” (for lunch, we all order out sometimes) but I thought he said “Twins?” Haha. Lordy. I said “Oh. Sorry. No, thank you.”

So much fog. I’m really glad for my blog and my support groups and now a few subreddits on Reddit. thanks for the support ❤

First food aversion- pork loin. NO THANK YOU.

Today has been a long day and it’s only about 1 pm. I can only describe it as “exhausted raging bitch” but only inwardly, as I work with patients, so I must be my nice and normal self outwardly.

At lunch time I couldn’t eat my pork loin. I opened up my lunch and it smelled like dog poop. I gagged. My co workers didn’t smell anything. I tried a bite. NOPE. Pregnancy is weird you guys. So I didn’t eat the pork and ate my veggies and drank my water.

That’s it I guess. The raging bitchiness has calmed down and I have a little more energy then I did. I had to lay down in the bathroom for a few minutes to get a grip on myself.

6 weeks 2 days and only 9 days away from my first ultrasound. Ahh!

Beta #3= 689

I had my third beta today. My results were 689. I have a 4th blood draw (are they called betas still after number 3?) on Friday. I’m a little nervous as most people seem to only have 3 and then they are on to ultrasound scheduling but I also read that you have to have an HCG level of 1000 for that.

My pain is gone today, thankfully, and I’m hoping it was just indigestion. I do feel weird, however. I feel like I can’t breathe, but I can breathe fine.. and my limbs feel weird. It must be anxiety. I’ve had anxiety my whole life, you’d think I’d recognize it by now. I used to have very severe attacks. One of my co workers pointed out that pregnancy hormones do crazy things, so that could be it. I also had to take progesterone in oil last night because I didn’t have the special compound (ethyl oleate) that I’ve been using, so it could be that, too. I feel like crying, I feel like sleeping, and I’m dizzy and just feel WEIRD.

I posted to one of my IVF support groups about my number and one woman so far said my number sound great, generally they just want to be safe. So… I’m going to try and relax. I’m still pregnant, and according to the beta calculator my numbers are rising every 2.27 days- which is good! (you want to see between 2 and 3 ideally)

So I guess that’s that for now!

Beta #1- 64
Beta #2-111
Beta #3- 689

5 weeks, 2 days pregnant