Exhaustion, nausea, dizziness, HUNGER!

Well, the exhaustion and nausea have stuck around. At points during the day I am absolutely sure I’m going to vomit, but I don’t. I’m also hungry A LOT. I wake up in the middle of the night and can’t go back to sleep because of how hungry I am.

Saturday I had an engagement session that was about 3 hours round trip of driving, and 2 hours of shooting. I had done some chores early in the day, and twenty minutes before I was supposed to leave I got SO tired. My eyes were fluttering on the way, so I pulled over and took a ten minute cat nap in a Burger King parking lot. After the session- where I felt fine!- I was driving home and after ten minutes I got so nauseous and had a tension headache. I stopped to get a quick bite at Burger King, thinking it would help ( no other options) and could only eat half my chicken sandwich. It tasted SO BAD. The fries were great, though.  I had to pep talk myself the whole way home. I pulled over to rest for 10 minutes and journeyed on. I flung myself into bed and fell asleep almost immediately. I woke up in the middle of the night and downed some water and had a PB sandwich, then went to bed again. I felt so much better in the AM. Holy shnikes!

I’ve been having cramping, too. I’ll be 7 weeks tomorrow.

I wish I could go home and go to bed, I’m so so tired.


My friend pointed out I hadn’t updated in several days and I was freaking her out, so here I am! lol.

Prenatal yoga was SO BORING. I did learn that if you remain flexible, labor will be easier as your muscles can relax between contractions. I think it will be more useful when I’m further along. The other ladies in there were close to birth, and I was the only one in my first trimester. I felt like a phony, like I couldn’t relate. An imposter! It’s a studio I don’t go to so I bought a new student special. I’m going to check out their other non heated classes.

Work has been exhausting. Yesterday it was slow and I left at 2 pm because I was so nauseous and tired. I slept until 6. I was supposed to go to Boston to meet up with some old co workers of mine but decided early on in the day that two hours round trip of driving was not in the cards. They were all very understanding and one of them said “That’s the best excuse I’ve ever heard not to hang out!” I was looking forward to seeing them, my old place of employment we were like a family.

Last night I had a VERY vivid dream where I had a baby girl, and all my family and I were on vacation with her. I can’t do the dream justice, as we generally can’t, but it was amazing and oh my god I hope that’s my life soon. I know dreams block out all the “bad stuff” but seriously. I want this.

I’ve switched to Crinone gel regularly now because I had run out progesterone in oil over the long weekend. I like not having to do injections in my giant knots anymore, but there are some icky side effects as well. TMI incoming: your discharge looks like cottage cheese. You have to clean yourself out with your finger once in a while. I did that for the first time last night and it was soooo gross. You freak out because brown and black flecks show up in the white substance but it’s normal. It’s gross, but I’ll do what I gotta do. I wear a pad every day.

My first ultrasound is now less than a week away and I’ve been doing an okay job remaining calm. I’m so scared for it. I hope it’s not bad like last time. My mom is coming with us, hopefully she brings some Meme power along. I have a wedding the next day, and both times I’ve had a loss, I found out the day before a wedding so I’m paranoid it’s going to happen again. Ahhhh! I’m gonna stop talking about it because I’m getting nervous.

Today I have an engagement shoot and tomorrow I have one of my best friend’s baby showers, which should be fun.

That’s it for now!

6 weeks 4 days pregnant today- baby is the size of a lady bug

Hello nausea- 6 weeks today

Well today nausea and dizziness is in full effect in addition to exhaustion. I’m happy for this though, because my ultrasound is 11 days away and obviously I’m already anxious. I talked myself out of an anxiety attack last night. Looking forward to acupuncture this evening. 🙂

Found a prenatal yoga class!

Well I will be starting a prenatal yoga class this Thursday. The other “prenatal” class I was taking in my previous pregnancy was actually a gentle candlelight yoga class, not specifically for pregnant ladies. I wonder how this will differ? I am already anxious for my ultrasound. How will I keep sane? Well.. scheduling this yoga and keeping up with my acupuncture… I am SO SCARED I’m going to lose this one, like the last two.

Brown spotting

I had some brown spotting yesterday and promptly lost my shit. In the calmest way possible. The nurse said as long as it’s not bright red or accompanied by severe cramps I’m ok. Haven’t had toooo much but yeaa. Deep breaths! 

HOLY SMOKES! Third beta

So my third beta is in..


as my dad would say, holy mackerel!

Since I can’t find a 3 beta calculator, I did it in the following way, screen caps below. This might actually happen!!


Blood work tomorrow

I thought it might be worth it to ask my fertility center if I could have my blood work tomorrow – at a clinic that is 25 minutes away, instead of on Saturday – at a clinic which is an hour and 5 minutes away. I stressed I understand timelines and understand if I couldn’t due to them, but I thought I’d ask. They said that was fine! So not only do I get to travel far less and sleep in on Saturday morning – I get my results a DAY SOONER! Woohoo!


Today I’ve been having quite a bit of stinging in my cervix. It’s similar to the cramping but it also STINGS on and off. I did some googling and it seems to be normal for the first trimester. My boobs are still sore, sometimes really sore and sometimes just a little bit.

Yesterday I went to several family events, one being a baby shower for my cousin. I heard my aunt say that they have a text thread for names, and one of the names she mentioned is my very coveted boy name. My dad and I looked at each other like :|. I didn’t say anything though. She’s due in the fall, so we’ll see! I might not even be having a boy, so… it’s weird, right? Lol.

I’m looking forward to my blood work on Saturday and my ultrasound whenever that happens. Oh please oh please let this one go to term!

edit- According to my FET transfer date, I am 4 weeks and 6 days pregnant.

Beta #2

Second beta is in.. 657!

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I’m going to continue my progesterone and estrace orally, but no longer have to take it vaginally.

Next beta is Saturday the 27th. Eep!