17 weeks 5 days

Whew. Close to my 18th week of pregnancy! I was sick with a terrible cold from last Sunday until now.. where I’m starting to get better. Still blowing my nose and coughing but I feel sooo much better. Human, again. One of those days last week I vomited so violently that I peed myself a little and almost got a Charlie horse in my leg. Not sure if it was from pregnancy or from swallowing mucus, or what but DAMN. It was awful.

I had two weddings last weekend, one here in Massachusetts that I worked until 10:30 at night, then immediately drove two hours to Vermont, where the second wedding was. I ended up getting myself a deep tissue massage the morning of the wedding- I was in so much pain I couldn’t sleep very well the night before. That helped a lot! She worked out a lot of knots.

I would report on my energy levels but they’ve been so low because of illness I can’t report any differences just yet. I have stopped gaining weight and actually lost a couple pounds… Since I’ve been sick I haven’t had as strong an appetite. I also have been having an uptick of IBS attacks, sooo I’m sure that doesn’t help.  I’m keeping an eye on it, for sure.

At my 16 week check up I had high blood pressure. I’ve been keeping an eye on that at work. She mentioned that I hadn’t gained any weight but said not to worry just yet. It’s hard to know where or not it’s okay since I started out with some extra pounds…

Saturday Adam and I went to Babies R Us and went a little nutty on our registry. My mom and dad bought our crib, my aunt bought the bureau and changing table, and my other aunt bought us a stroller/car seat combo and an additional car seat. I need some time to clean out Hawk’s nursery- right now it’s Adam’s recording studio/music room. The room he’s moving all of that into is very small and full of clutter!

We met with a birth photographer on Saturday- who was a sweetheart- but I didn’t feel the click that you want to have with someone photographing such an intimate moment. The search continues!

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(here’s a stock photo of Hawk’s crib and bureau/changing table!)

Mixed reviews on the name, baby H has his own email!

We are getting quite the mixed reviews on baby H’s name, as we knew we would. It’s unique but nothing crazy like Blanket, lol. My mom and dad were not fans, but my mom is being super cute about it and giggles a lot. I think she’s already getting used to it. Adam told his parents over text so they’d have time to marinate on it and they never responded- in text OR person. Adam says he wishes they would just make a face, joke about it, and move on. My in laws (Adam’s brothers and their wives) mostly loved it, one couple Adam thinks are meh about it but they’ve been polite. A lot of our friends love it, and at a family party on my dad’s side yesterday one aunt and uncle had the same horrified look. *shrug*

It’s our baby and we love his name and we’re sticking to it!

I started baby H his own email address and sent him his first email titled “I’m your Mom! Ha-ha!”

I’m going to try and keep up with it.. I’ve kept up with this blog so I have high hopes.

16 weeks Wednesday!

Officially team boy!

I booked a boutique ultrasound because I am impatient and wanted to see if the Sneak Peek test was correct, as well as see our little dude. Well- it was correct! We are having a boy. We saw his little peen! Haha 🙂 Not much else to say but here are some photos.. we also decided on a name. So excited!

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We also got a sneak peek of 3D ultrasounds, as you can see. Well worth the $65.00 and 45 minute drive to the clinic!  ❤ ❤

15 Weeks tomorrow

It’s been a week. Overwhelming, personally and at work. I trudge on.

I’m getting tired again.. I think it must be a mental thing as opposed to a pregnancy thing. Or maybe a little of both. Who knows.

My left boob has been burning for several days now off and on. My nipples are hard a lot more often then they’ve ever been and they are SORE. This morning my towel brushed them and I almost yelped. No weight gain since my last check up if the scale at work is correct. I’ve been having frequent headaches. Hormones are a little whacky but with several things going on that’s to be expected. I woke up like ten times last night from heartburn, as well as night sweats. Could explain being exhausted I suppose.

Sunday afternoon I got all stressed and ended up a crying mess on my couch. Adam, our dog Cal, and I went on a walk in a local park a little bit after. The exercise and the serene forest really helped.

I’m so tired, I want to hermit, and I have no patience for anyone right now. So that’s what’s going on, lol.

14 weeks tomorrow

So a lot has happened in the last few days. I got the results of that gender prediction test.. it said .. BOY!

We’ll see if it was correct or not- Adam refuses to believe until September when we get our anatomy scan. I’d say it’s fairly accurate because if they get the gender wrong they have to give you your money back.. sooo..

I was happy to have those results. I told my Pepe on Friday afternoon. I don’t know if he heard me or not, he was pretty much comatose at that point. My Pepe passed away on Saturday.. it’s been hard. I was really really close to him and since I moved back from the city I went to college in I hung out with him constantly. Even when I was a little kid I was super close to him…

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That’s a screen shot from a home movie.. Pepe looking at me when I was a baby. That’s my brother next to me. I’m really sad and depressed about this, but I know in time the pain will fade. I’d like to think he heard that he was right and that I’m having a boy- that was his prediction. Last Wednesday was his birthday and he was kind of out of it, but came more “alive” by the end of the night. I said “Pepe, I’m 13 weeks today, isn’t that exciting?” and he said “Not for me…” He was really bummed he wasn’t going to be around to meet our little one. He then said the baby would be a tough little boy. I’m going to miss him so much but I’m glad I have a lot of stories, photos, and videos to share of him with my child/children.

Now for my first official… BUMP PICTURE!

I went to a maternity store today and this is my first maternity outfit.. other than a dress I bought from Target. As you can see, most of the weight I carry is in my boobs and my belly. My face is definitely fuller.. the last time I weighed myself (last last week) I hadn’t gained any weight since my last check up.. hopefully that trend continues.

This is what I wore to Pepe’s wake tonight. His funeral is tomorrow. I’m so thankful for Adam by my side and my family.

13 Weeks Today

13 Weeks Today!

Some of the exhaustion has been letting up the last two days- it could be due to the fact that I have passed out at 9 or 10 pm each night respectively. Knock on wood that soon to be second trimester energy is starting to kick in. The last wedding I did on Saturday absolutely destroyed me, so I could really use the energy going forward.

I had a dream the other night that I was at the gender scan and we saw the little “hamburger” meaning girl. I read that phrase online- LOL! I woke up and Adam was saying “hamburger” in his sleep. I said “What love?” and he repeated it. I don’t know if that means anything, but I’m starting to suspect girl! When we were both fully awake for the morning I asked Adam about it and he didn’t remember a thing! My boss thinks I’m having a girl. She wants to do a gender reveal at work. My co worker/friend was like “Do it! Free food.” ha!

I bought an early gender predictor test online called Sneak Peek. I heard about it on the pregnancy subreddit I’m on and the reviews are, for the most part, good! I didn’t tell Adam about it at all so I can surprise him. I completed the test the other day and it’s now back on it’s way to San Diego, CA where they will test my blood for me. It was easy peasy! I’m excited to hear back.

Nausea still persists when I’m hungry, but I think that’s fading as well. I was having headaches over the weekend but those have stopped. I’ve been on the phone with HR, my union rep, and the company that deals with FMLA (family medical leave act) and short term disability. I read online that in my state of Massachusetts, if you aren’t on short term disability and become pregnant, you will automatically be denied as it is a “pre-existing condition.” I’ve been freaking out a bit about affording to live and taking maternity leave- I want the full 12 weeks! I may or may not qualify when open enrollment rolls around in November. I’m planning for the worst. Luckily this has been the busiest season of photography I’ve had, so I should be able to have a solid nest put aside for those three months. Oof! Not stress a soon to be new mother wants to think about.

That’s it for now!

Well look at you, my little one.

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Baby is doing great! Heartbeat is great, the fluid at the back of their neck is narrow, which is a good sign, and they are even a couple days ahead of schedule as far as growth goes. Today was my first abdominal ultrasound while pregnant and it was nice not to have my friend the wand up my lady bits. Baby was moving around like crazy, causing me to cry and laugh, and then try and sit still so they could get their measurements. Next appointment is at 16 weeks- no scan, and the anatomy scan is at 20 weeks. This is so surreal. ❤

Doppler is the best purchase I’ve made.

My boss is awesome. I’ve said it time and again but she really is. She sat with me while I waited for the doctor because she didn’t want to leave me alone, which was great. After 20 minutes the secretary called me back and said the doc said it’s most likely normal, to keep an eye on it, and she’ll see me tomorrow. My boss told me to come home and rest, and I had mentioned my doppler so she said to use that and to text her when I had. After some struggle I found the heartbeat. Baby’s HB sounds strong as ever. Panic has subsided for now. Spotting has subsided for now as well. Hopefully tomorrow goes well. So thankful in this moment for my boss and hearing that heartbeat. ❤

 

Pink spotting….

oh god oh god oh god oh god.

 

I’m on hold with my OB’s office. My heart sunk. PLEASE BE FINE! I know this is a possibility but I’m losing it. I wish I had my Doppler with me.

12 weeks today

Feels surreal. My next ultrasound and appointment with my OB is tomorrow. We’ll be doing NT testing and I already had my blood drawn a few weeks ago. I’m so nervous but excited. My mom is coming with me. I hope they let me take a little video of the baby flipping around- as I hear they do around now- so I can show Adam. He will be at work and can’t get out to come with. Ahh!