I am now 23 weeks pregnant, and I’m fucking tired. This weekend I have off of photography (minus a client meeting on Sunday) and so I decided to take Monday off as well to give myself a three day weekend. I still have a lot of editing, but the rest is very much welcome. At least I don’t have to wear a bra or pants at home 😉 and I can sleep in!One of my hard drives broke and I have to get it fixed.. aka I had to send it out to DriveSavers to get the data pulled off… to the tune of at least $1,700. My photography work is backed up, but some personal things were not. This means I can’t afford to outsource any weddings like I was talking about, as I need to save as much as I can for my unpaid maternity leave, and that put a big ol’ dent in my monetary situation.

Saturday I had a 5 hour wedding that absolutely destroyed my sciatica pain. I got home and laid on the ground and when I got up I was yelping and Adam had to help me to the couch. After some rest it got better, but it has flared up during the day at work, too, and sometimes at night. I have 5 weddings left to shoot.. 4 in October – two double header weekends, and one, my last of the season, on my 30th birthday on November 3rd. I can’t wait to have time to myself again. I want to nest- AND rest.

I haven’t had any cravings really, nausea has come and gone but I haven’t vomited again. I sleep when I get home from work now for like 3 hours, wake up and edit for a few hours, then go to bed and repeat the next day. I’ve been having more emotional days than not, and sometimes I’m weepy, and sometimes I’m VERY angry and irritable, and sometimes it’s both. I hate that I don’t have control over my emotions, and a lot of times I want people to leave me the fuck alone.

I can feel little dude moving around or kicking/punching, but it’s still very light. My guess is the placenta is still super pillowy. Speaking of pillows, I started using my maternity pillow I bought many moons ago and it is AWESOME.

Hawk’s name is getting a lot of mixed reviews still. We love it, so we don’t care in that regard, but it drives me absolutely crazy that people think giving us different names to use instead, or trying to convince us to change it for whatever reason is okay. This is our son, mind your manners. I appreciate it when I can tell someone doesn’t like the name but they are polite about it.  Ugh.

Anyway. I hope this didn’t come off too negative. I am always grateful that I am pregnant and our son is on his way, but I am most definitely overworked, and not in control of my moods.