I am now 23 weeks pregnant, and I’m fucking tired. This weekend I have off of photography (minus a client meeting on Sunday) and so I decided to take Monday off as well to give myself a three day weekend. I still have a lot of editing, but the rest is very much welcome. At least I don’t have to wear a bra or pants at home 😉 and I can sleep in!One of my hard drives broke and I have to get it fixed.. aka I had to send it out to DriveSavers to get the data pulled off… to the tune of at least $1,700. My photography work is backed up, but some personal things were not. This means I can’t afford to outsource any weddings like I was talking about, as I need to save as much as I can for my unpaid maternity leave, and that put a big ol’ dent in my monetary situation.

Saturday I had a 5 hour wedding that absolutely destroyed my sciatica pain. I got home and laid on the ground and when I got up I was yelping and Adam had to help me to the couch. After some rest it got better, but it has flared up during the day at work, too, and sometimes at night. I have 5 weddings left to shoot.. 4 in October – two double header weekends, and one, my last of the season, on my 30th birthday on November 3rd. I can’t wait to have time to myself again. I want to nest- AND rest.

I haven’t had any cravings really, nausea has come and gone but I haven’t vomited again. I sleep when I get home from work now for like 3 hours, wake up and edit for a few hours, then go to bed and repeat the next day. I’ve been having more emotional days than not, and sometimes I’m weepy, and sometimes I’m VERY angry and irritable, and sometimes it’s both. I hate that I don’t have control over my emotions, and a lot of times I want people to leave me the fuck alone.

I can feel little dude moving around or kicking/punching, but it’s still very light. My guess is the placenta is still super pillowy. Speaking of pillows, I started using my maternity pillow I bought many moons ago and it is AWESOME.

Hawk’s name is getting a lot of mixed reviews still. We love it, so we don’t care in that regard, but it drives me absolutely crazy that people think giving us different names to use instead, or trying to convince us to change it for whatever reason is okay. This is our son, mind your manners. I appreciate it when I can tell someone doesn’t like the name but they are polite about it.  Ugh.

Anyway. I hope this didn’t come off too negative. I am always grateful that I am pregnant and our son is on his way, but I am most definitely overworked, and not in control of my moods.

Woof. I had a long weekend. Friday I had a wedding, Saturday I had a wedding, and yesterday I edited my ass off, as well as wrote out invitations to my baby shower with my mother, mother in law, and sister in laws. That was a fun reprieve 🙂

I’m close to finishing editing one wedding, I have 4 waiting in the wings. I’ve decided to outsource a couple weddings for editing. I don’t remember what free time is like. I’m exhausted. At $0.32 an image it won’t be cheap, but it will be worth some sanity.. and I’d like to say free time,  but I still have other weddings to edit it those weddings’ place, so let’s be real here. I have 6 weddings left to shoot, the last being in November, and then I have a break until MAY. I can’t wait.

This morning as I was getting ready for work I was doing deep breathing to avoid vomiting. At one point it didn’t help any longer and I thought I was just gagging, but no, I vomited into my palm. I ran into the bathroom and wretched hard, I couldn’t breathe because my nose became blocked up, which made things worse. Eventually I was able to stop puking and blow my nose, and resume deep breathing. I scared the shit out of my dog. I texted my co workers I’d be a little late thanks to that episode. I’ve been tired and ill feeling ever since. I want to sleep like you wouldn’t believe. I’m really cranky, tired, and have no patience whatsoever. I’ve also had a few episodes of diarrhea last night and this morning. Good times. I can fully admit I’m not one of those “I feel amazing I am mother” pregnant ladies. I’m tired and bitchy. It is what it is. Don’t get me wrong, I WILL TAKE IT! It’s taken me years to get here, but I just want to go to bed.

Also, my nipple is so sore I can’t even brush it. Wtf is up with that? The whole boob is sore. Meh. End bitchy post!

22 weeks on Wednesday.

Today is 21 weeks. I am tired and I am cranky, haha.

I have 8 weddings left for the season. I love photography but man I need a break. Two weddings this weekend and a family session. I’m going a little nuts. By the end of the weekend I will have 4 and a half weddings and a family session to edit.

I’ve been sleeping a ton lately. I was supposed to go to yoga yesterday- HA. Nope. I started taking Zantac and that’s been helping with the heartburn which has been a huge relief.

I guess that’s it for now. Sludging through work continues…

Had my 20 week check up and anatomy scan today. Turns out my placenta is in between little man and myself which is why I haven’t felt TOO much in the way of movement or kicks- and if I do feel things it will be on the sides of my belly- which is true! I’ve felt a few flutters and flicks over there before. So a while longer but that’s okay.

He is measuring RIGHT on target, which is great! We got to see everything- his arms, his legs, his hands, his feet, his bladder, his stomach, his kidneys, his heart and it’s 4 chambers pumping away, his brain, his abdomen.. etc etc. He looks great, is measuring great, and my doctor said we are now at the cruising stage of pregnancy. Adam was super grossed out by the whole thing except the profile shots- he gets very squeamish. I probably said “cool” like 200 times- hahaha.

I asked my doc about my heartburn and she said it would be okay to take Zantec to help, twice a day. I also mentioned my sciatic pain I’ve been getting and she gave me a few exercises I can do and told me to do yoga. I’ve been so tired I have totally dropped the ball on yoga AND exercising. I’ll do my best!

I haven’t gained any weight and she said that’s okay as long as the baby is okay- which he is! She said since I started out a little overweight she is not worried about it.

I signed Adam and I up for all of our classes- starting in late November and going into December. Prepared childbirth, Newborn care, Breastfeeding, and Infant CPR and Safety.

I guess that’s it for now. I can’t believe we are halfway there!!