I had such a a vivid dream of Adam and I with a baby boy. Adam was amazing with him. We were trying to figure out a name. I also dreamed of him being around my entire family, and my dad especially. I’m so sad about it, god damn it hurts.
I reapplied for FMLA again, so I can keep my job safe. I had to report 11 full days, and 3 other days where I had appointments to go to. There’s a rule about timely reporting of these days but I was denied the FMLA. This is so frustrating because why would I report days if I was denied? We’ll see what happens. Fortunately my work is understanding.
Yesterday afternoon at work and last night I was getting cramps and pain in my back. I was also getting sharp stabbing pains in my cervix. I was scared I was going to miscarriage naturally before I had the chance to get to my appointment on Friday. Luckily I took a long nap after work and those things mostly went away.
I’m so depressed. I’m very nervous about the D&C tomorrow but I just need it to happen so I can heal.
Our Friggin' IVF Journey 
I hope it goes smoothly for you so you can begin to have closure and heal. Thinking of you (and so is DH. He only know you as “the blog girl who goes to our clinic”, but I’d been keeping him up to date on you. I think you’re more “real” to him since you’re local) xoxo
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Thank you very much ❤ and thanks to your hubs too! Mine also knows about you 😉 "A girl that goes to our clinic, she has Dr. V"
xoxo
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Miscarriage is awful. It stops us in our tracks, while life goes on around us. Be kind to yourself, let yourself feel every emotion… Healing just takes time. Praying for you!
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Yes, exactly. You have to be normal when life is forever changed, you aren’t in your new normal yet. It’s crazy an weird. Thank you ❤
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