I tested again this morning.

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It’s so so faint but it’s there. My husband and I got into a little argument last night. He doesn’t want to put any stock in these faintly positive tests. Before this cycle we talked about not getting excited until it’s official official. Like heartbeat official. I told him that we can be happy about the little steps in the right direction, but he doesn’t see it that way. He said last time was devastating (of course) and he doesn’t want to preemptively get excited. I was upset with him but I have to respect his feelings. I hate that infertility steals these precious moments from us.

I had a dream I was bleeding and in my dream I said “I lost it.” I hope that’s not a sign and just my anxiety leaking into my dreams. I’m probably not going to test tonight but I probably will tomorrow or Saturday. Definitely Sunday.

Sigh. This is so hard.

14 thoughts on “6dp5dt

  1. mmkrn says:

    Honestly, if you can stand it, wait an extra day to test again. I got a faint positive on 6dp5dt, tested again on 8dp5dt, and it was just barely a little darker… It was disheartening because you just want to see it so dark! Then I did it again at 10dp5dt and it was much darker… That’s when I was like okay, maybe it’s real. I totally understand your husband, but I 100% agree with you- celebrate each step! Of course you’re going to be worried for the next step, but as I’m realizing, that doesn’t really go away, so try to enjoy each milestone! Positive pregnancy test- check! 🙂

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  2. unplannedinfertility says:

    I could barely see the other one, but I can totally see this one. Try not to let your husband’s feelings about it bother you too much. We all need to protect our feelings sometimes. My husband is not totally believing it right now, even with 4 positive HPT. I sent him something from the Ovia app this morning (thanks for mentioning that, I downloaded it after hearing of it from you!) and he called me right away for clarification. He said “oh, I thought you were telling me we’re pregnant”. Like, duh, we already know I am from the tests. It’s just a matter of waiting to see if it’s going to develop and stay. But right now, WE ARE! So go ahead and be excited for it. I’m so happy for you, and I’m so hoping this one sticks for you!

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  3. maybebaby says:

    Totally with you with this frustrating wait. I’ve bought the hpt but can’t bring myself to use it, as if it’s negative I’m going to be gutted and if it’s positive I’m going to wonder if it’s correct-argh!! Best wishes🙏


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