Ultrasound in the morning, and blood work

Dr. P called back and we chatted about what was going on. She said that sometimes progesterone can give you bad pains that feel like the REALLY bad pains. She also said it’s too early to be symptomatic for a tubal pregnancy, but she wants to do an ultrasound just in case, and to see what’s going on in there. I had some spotting that was maroonish mixed with brown but I’m back to brown again. It might be too early to see anything on the ultrasound. It’s normal to have spotting as long as it’s not bright red, so I’m trying to remain calm. I’m also getting my beta that was scheduled for Friday tomorrow morning. Adam is coming with me. It’s going to be in the far away satellite, so I had to tell work I wouldn’t be in until 10 am-ish. Also, no sexy times. I’m fine with that, not quite in the mood at this time.. haha.

So that’s the scoop. I’m sorry for the ladies who aren’t pregnant yet to be reading this. I feel like I sound crazy! I just didn’t expect any of this and the pains were so bad.

Cramps and sharp pains

I felt weird ALL DAY yesterday, like I wanted to jump out of my skin and go run around really fast. That’s gone today,  but I woke up to really strong cramps that felt like my period was coming. Also sharp sharp pains off and on. I put my finger up there to check the scene and had some brown discharge, but not a lot, and my care team said that was normal. They think the cramping is normal too but they’re going to call me back after they talk to the doctor. Pregnancy is scary stuff, you just don’t know what’s right and what’s wrong. Ahh!

I cancelled two bridal expos I had booths at in January. I hadn’t paid a deposit and they were asking me for money to secure my slot. I don’t think anyone would want to hire an 8 month pregnant wedding photographer- even if their wedding wasn’t for a while after I was no longer pregnant! Also, if it snows, or I go in to labor early, or so many what ifs… plus bridal expos are long and tiring days, and even not pregnant I ended up exhausted. I have 3 more weddings separating me and relaxation all the time, other than my day job and until September when I have some more weddings. As for canceling the expos, I’m sort of concerned about stagnating my business but I need to take care of peppercorn and myself. I’m a little nervous that I didn’t wait long enough but I couldn’t really wait anymore.

I hope my peppercorn is okay!


Beta #3= 689

I had my third beta today. My results were 689. I have a 4th blood draw (are they called betas still after number 3?) on Friday. I’m a little nervous as most people seem to only have 3 and then they are on to ultrasound scheduling but I also read that you have to have an HCG level of 1000 for that.

My pain is gone today, thankfully, and I’m hoping it was just indigestion. I do feel weird, however. I feel like I can’t breathe, but I can breathe fine.. and my limbs feel weird. It must be anxiety. I’ve had anxiety my whole life, you’d think I’d recognize it by now. I used to have very severe attacks. One of my co workers pointed out that pregnancy hormones do crazy things, so that could be it. I also had to take progesterone in oil last night because I didn’t have the special compound (ethyl oleate) that I’ve been using, so it could be that, too. I feel like crying, I feel like sleeping, and I’m dizzy and just feel WEIRD.

I posted to one of my IVF support groups about my number and one woman so far said my number sound great, generally they just want to be safe. So… I’m going to try and relax. I’m still pregnant, and according to the beta calculator my numbers are rising every 2.27 days- which is good! (you want to see between 2 and 3 ideally)

So I guess that’s that for now!

Beta #1- 64
Beta #2-111
Beta #3- 689

5 weeks, 2 days pregnant

Beta # 3 switched to tomorrow…

Today I’ve been having pain in my right side and my back. It really hurts and it’s freaking me out! I had to strain for a bowel movement and got out a little bit two times, and I’ve been burping and ATTEMPTING to pass gas but nothing seems to be bringing me any relief. I went to dr.google and got really scared, so I stopped that and called my care team. They said they don’t think it’s an ectopic pregnancy as it’s too early for that, but they are moving my 3rd beta up to tomorrow to see where my levels are. She suspects it’s normal pregnancy stuff. I hope so!



A pregnant lady at a bachelorette party

I went to my good friend’s bachelorette party this weekend. I ended up telling all the ladies present I was pregnant, as I was VERY TIRED. Also, apparently pregnant ladies cannot ride go carts- who knew? I went to bed earlier than everyone and slept in later than everyone. Unfortunately for me, week 5 is when the irritability cranks up. I was glad that was normal, I was feeling CRAZY.. but, I hate feeling that way! I really tried to be “normal” and not drag everyone down into pregnancy exhaustion and crankiness, so hopefully I did well. I had a good time other than that, and enjoyed not having a gnarly hangover! Haha 🙂 Wednesday is my next beta and I’m anxious to get the results. My breasts are still sore, I have cramping here and there, and my nausea comes and goes, but not as bad. I wonder if I’m getting used to these things? My husband and I decided not to have intercourse for a while because of what happened during our TWW last time, but uh.. that didn’t last. Happily I am not bleeding or in any pain, so I’m pretty excited about that!


Bachelorette party survival kit

Baby C is now the size of a peppercorn! Also, according to my Ovia app;

“Your baby’s neural tube has either completed or is in the process of closing, after which its brain and spinal cord can start to develop.”


5 weeks 1 day pregnant

10 hours of sleep

I went to bed at 9 pm last night, resulting in 10 glorious hours of sleep. I’m just trying to listen to my body and do what it wants me to do. Honestly I could have slept longer. My nausea has calmed down quite a bit, but I find myself still very tired. Cramping on and off, and sometimes when I twist I get sharp pulling pains. I’m just hoping that everything is progressing as it should! Trying not to let pregnancy psychosis take over. It’s hard, with all the terrifying things you read.

This weekend I’m going to my friend Adrianne’s bachelorette party. I hope I’m not too much of a party pooper, I might need naps and I might need to go to bed earlier then everyone. We shall see!

Yesterday I talked to my insurance company about the balance I have at the fertility center. Apparently I have surgical copays no one told me about. Cool. It’s better than paying thousands! She also told me that while my current IVF authorization ends in October, if it’s renewed by the doctor and 4 cycles doesn’t do it, I have an additional two cycles. What? No one told me this, either. So instead of 4 cycles I have 6 cycles approved lifetime. That’s awesome! I hope that this current pregnancy goes to term, and I can use the other cycles in the future should I need them.

So yea, that’s it. Trying to stay calm and trust that this pregnancy will go to full term and result in the baby we’ve been trying for for years.

Come on poppy seed! ❤

1st trimester-
4 weeks, 5 days pregnant
Third beta this Wednesday!

“Your baby is developing its primitive heart tube, which will form its heart soon”
(from the Ovia pregnancy app)

Beta #2, a success!

Beta number 2 was 111, “a nice rise” they say. It’s hard not to compare my betas to others, but I have to remember we are all different, and the fact that I am indeed pregnant. I’m scared something is going to take it away from me. Next beta is next Wednesday the 15th. According to my new Ovia pregnancy app, Baby C is the size of a poppy seed.

Oh! I also found this very comforting and informative-


Beta #1- 64
Beta #2-111

Beta #2 drawn, waiting…

So my second beta was this morning. I need to stop googling but I can’t help it. I’ve transitioned into pregnancy psychosis. I was so tired yesterday I left work at 3:40 when all the patients were gone and flopped into my bed at 4pm, waking up at 7pm. This morning I woke up and felt better than I have in a while, which made me nervous. When I feel sick I know I’m pregnant, and when I feel normal I start to worry my numbers are declining. I don’t think the worrying ever stops. So many posts on blogs and the support groups on FB about how women’s numbers have gone down and they lost their pregnancy. I’m hoping that my numbers are steadily rising. I’m looking forward to those results… I hope they don’t keep me waiting!

1st beta – 64
2nd beta- ???

The words I’ve been waiting for…

I. AM. PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!

Dr. Plante called just before lunch and she sounded so excited. She said the words I’ve been waiting to hear.. I’m pregnant! I was jumping up and down and crying. I can’t believe it! My numbers are at 64, and she says we are off to a good start! I’m going to be taking one less estrogen pill a day but keeping up with all other meds. My next beta is on Wednesday. I just can’t believe it.

I called my mom and said “Hi Meme” and she start screaming, and Adam said “I’m running! I’m just running out of the building!” and we were laughing and so happy. I’m in shock and it feels really surreal.

I’m going to stop by my Pepe’s house after work and hopefully tell my dad later in person.. he called my mom wondering. Ahh!!

10p5dt- and pregnant!

Overslept on beta day.. but I made it there!

Last night I was so excited and anxious I couldn’t sleep. I finally fell asleep around 3 am, and my alarm was set for 5:45 am. I woke up at 6:30- around the time I leave to get to the clinic! I had been hitting snooze continuously and decided I should probably check the time. I jumped out of bed, showered and got ready and was out the door by 6:45. Of course there was a ton of traffic but I tried to stay calm. I got there in time, had my blood drawn, and now I’m waiting some more. I have my phone on loud so patients or my co-workers will be enjoying a little bit of the Dr Who theme. I’ll update when I know!

10dp5dt- Beta drawn- WAITING!!