23 Weeks

I am now 23 weeks pregnant, and I’m fucking tired. This weekend I have off of photography (minus a client meeting on Sunday) and so I decided to take Monday off as well to give myself a three day weekend. I still have a lot of editing, but the rest is very much welcome. At least I don’t have to wear a bra or pants at home 😉 and I can sleep in!One of my hard drives broke and I have to get it fixed.. aka I had to send it out to DriveSavers to get the data pulled off… to the tune of at least $1,700. My photography work is backed up, but some personal things were not. This means I can’t afford to outsource any weddings like I was talking about, as I need to save as much as I can for my unpaid maternity leave, and that put a big ol’ dent in my monetary situation.

Saturday I had a 5 hour wedding that absolutely destroyed my sciatica pain. I got home and laid on the ground and when I got up I was yelping and Adam had to help me to the couch. After some rest it got better, but it has flared up during the day at work, too, and sometimes at night. I have 5 weddings left to shoot.. 4 in October – two double header weekends, and one, my last of the season, on my 30th birthday on November 3rd. I can’t wait to have time to myself again. I want to nest- AND rest.

I haven’t had any cravings really, nausea has come and gone but I haven’t vomited again. I sleep when I get home from work now for like 3 hours, wake up and edit for a few hours, then go to bed and repeat the next day. I’ve been having more emotional days than not, and sometimes I’m weepy, and sometimes I’m VERY angry and irritable, and sometimes it’s both. I hate that I don’t have control over my emotions, and a lot of times I want people to leave me the fuck alone.

I can feel little dude moving around or kicking/punching, but it’s still very light. My guess is the placenta is still super pillowy. Speaking of pillows, I started using my maternity pillow I bought many moons ago and it is AWESOME.

Hawk’s name is getting a lot of mixed reviews still. We love it, so we don’t care in that regard, but it drives me absolutely crazy that people think giving us different names to use instead, or trying to convince us to change it for whatever reason is okay. This is our son, mind your manners. I appreciate it when I can tell someone doesn’t like the name but they are polite about it.  Ugh.

Anyway. I hope this didn’t come off too negative. I am always grateful that I am pregnant and our son is on his way, but I am most definitely overworked, and not in control of my moods.

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My boobs hurt. I threw up into my palm this morning. I’m tired. I’m cranky. LOL

Woof. I had a long weekend. Friday I had a wedding, Saturday I had a wedding, and yesterday I edited my ass off, as well as wrote out invitations to my baby shower with my mother, mother in law, and sister in laws. That was a fun reprieve 🙂

I’m close to finishing editing one wedding, I have 4 waiting in the wings. I’ve decided to outsource a couple weddings for editing. I don’t remember what free time is like. I’m exhausted. At $0.32 an image it won’t be cheap, but it will be worth some sanity.. and I’d like to say free time,  but I still have other weddings to edit it those weddings’ place, so let’s be real here. I have 6 weddings left to shoot, the last being in November, and then I have a break until MAY. I can’t wait.

This morning as I was getting ready for work I was doing deep breathing to avoid vomiting. At one point it didn’t help any longer and I thought I was just gagging, but no, I vomited into my palm. I ran into the bathroom and wretched hard, I couldn’t breathe because my nose became blocked up, which made things worse. Eventually I was able to stop puking and blow my nose, and resume deep breathing. I scared the shit out of my dog. I texted my co workers I’d be a little late thanks to that episode. I’ve been tired and ill feeling ever since. I want to sleep like you wouldn’t believe. I’m really cranky, tired, and have no patience whatsoever. I’ve also had a few episodes of diarrhea last night and this morning. Good times. I can fully admit I’m not one of those “I feel amazing I am mother” pregnant ladies. I’m tired and bitchy. It is what it is. Don’t get me wrong, I WILL TAKE IT! It’s taken me years to get here, but I just want to go to bed.

Also, my nipple is so sore I can’t even brush it. Wtf is up with that? The whole boob is sore. Meh. End bitchy post!

22 weeks on Wednesday.

21 Weeks pregnant

Today is 21 weeks. I am tired and I am cranky, haha.

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I have 8 weddings left for the season. I love photography but man I need a break. Two weddings this weekend and a family session. I’m going a little nuts. By the end of the weekend I will have 4 and a half weddings and a family session to edit.

I’ve been sleeping a ton lately. I was supposed to go to yoga yesterday- HA. Nope. I started taking Zantac and that’s been helping with the heartburn which has been a huge relief.

I guess that’s it for now. Sludging through work continues…

20 Weeks today- we’re half way!

Had my 20 week check up and anatomy scan today. Turns out my placenta is in between little man and myself which is why I haven’t felt TOO much in the way of movement or kicks- and if I do feel things it will be on the sides of my belly- which is true! I’ve felt a few flutters and flicks over there before. So a while longer but that’s okay.

He is measuring RIGHT on target, which is great! We got to see everything- his arms, his legs, his hands, his feet, his bladder, his stomach, his kidneys, his heart and it’s 4 chambers pumping away, his brain, his abdomen.. etc etc. He looks great, is measuring great, and my doctor said we are now at the cruising stage of pregnancy. Adam was super grossed out by the whole thing except the profile shots- he gets very squeamish. I probably said “cool” like 200 times- hahaha.

I asked my doc about my heartburn and she said it would be okay to take Zantec to help, twice a day. I also mentioned my sciatic pain I’ve been getting and she gave me a few exercises I can do and told me to do yoga. I’ve been so tired I have totally dropped the ball on yoga AND exercising. I’ll do my best!

I haven’t gained any weight and she said that’s okay as long as the baby is okay- which he is! She said since I started out a little overweight she is not worried about it.

I signed Adam and I up for all of our classes- starting in late November and going into December. Prepared childbirth, Newborn care, Breastfeeding, and Infant CPR and Safety.

I guess that’s it for now. I can’t believe we are halfway there!!

 

 

I am doing too much, but I can’t stop.

I am so tired. I haven’t been sleeping well. I’m also working too much. Wedding season is in full swing. I had two weddings this past weekend. I took yesterday off and it was glorious. My house is a mess and I have no energy left over to clean it. 9 weddings left to shoot. Right now I’m in the midst of editing half a wedding (the other half being done), a 50th anniversary party, an engagement session, and this past weekend’s two weddings. This coming weekend I have a “reprieve” of only one session- a maternity/family session- and an album design meeting with clients I shot a wedding for last month. I need to design an album, get another approved and sent to order, and I’m keeping up with incoming inquiries. On top of that, I have my day job.

I. am. so. tired. There is no time for a break. I need a vacation.

In health news, this friggin cough will not go away. It’s going on three weeks now. Sneezing and drippy nose continues, but not as bad. Heartburn is sticking around.

In pregnancy news, I think I would feel much better if I weren’t working so hard. I have some small pimples on my chest and apparently MY BUTT. ?!?! haha.

19 weeks tomorrow.

17 weeks 5 days

Whew. Close to my 18th week of pregnancy! I was sick with a terrible cold from last Sunday until now.. where I’m starting to get better. Still blowing my nose and coughing but I feel sooo much better. Human, again. One of those days last week I vomited so violently that I peed myself a little and almost got a Charlie horse in my leg. Not sure if it was from pregnancy or from swallowing mucus, or what but DAMN. It was awful.

I had two weddings last weekend, one here in Massachusetts that I worked until 10:30 at night, then immediately drove two hours to Vermont, where the second wedding was. I ended up getting myself a deep tissue massage the morning of the wedding- I was in so much pain I couldn’t sleep very well the night before. That helped a lot! She worked out a lot of knots.

I would report on my energy levels but they’ve been so low because of illness I can’t report any differences just yet. I have stopped gaining weight and actually lost a couple pounds… Since I’ve been sick I haven’t had as strong an appetite. I also have been having an uptick of IBS attacks, sooo I’m sure that doesn’t help.  I’m keeping an eye on it, for sure.

At my 16 week check up I had high blood pressure. I’ve been keeping an eye on that at work. She mentioned that I hadn’t gained any weight but said not to worry just yet. It’s hard to know where or not it’s okay since I started out with some extra pounds…

Saturday Adam and I went to Babies R Us and went a little nutty on our registry. My mom and dad bought our crib, my aunt bought the bureau and changing table, and my other aunt bought us a stroller/car seat combo and an additional car seat. I need some time to clean out Hawk’s nursery- right now it’s Adam’s recording studio/music room. The room he’s moving all of that into is very small and full of clutter!

We met with a birth photographer on Saturday- who was a sweetheart- but I didn’t feel the click that you want to have with someone photographing such an intimate moment. The search continues!

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(here’s a stock photo of Hawk’s crib and bureau/changing table!)

Mixed reviews on the name, baby H has his own email!

We are getting quite the mixed reviews on baby H’s name, as we knew we would. It’s unique but nothing crazy like Blanket, lol. My mom and dad were not fans, but my mom is being super cute about it and giggles a lot. I think she’s already getting used to it. Adam told his parents over text so they’d have time to marinate on it and they never responded- in text OR person. Adam says he wishes they would just make a face, joke about it, and move on. My in laws (Adam’s brothers and their wives) mostly loved it, one couple Adam thinks are meh about it but they’ve been polite. A lot of our friends love it, and at a family party on my dad’s side yesterday one aunt and uncle had the same horrified look. *shrug*

It’s our baby and we love his name and we’re sticking to it!

I started baby H his own email address and sent him his first email titled “I’m your Mom! Ha-ha!”

I’m going to try and keep up with it.. I’ve kept up with this blog so I have high hopes.

16 weeks Wednesday!

Officially team boy!

I booked a boutique ultrasound because I am impatient and wanted to see if the Sneak Peek test was correct, as well as see our little dude. Well- it was correct! We are having a boy. We saw his little peen! Haha 🙂 Not much else to say but here are some photos.. we also decided on a name. So excited!

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We also got a sneak peek of 3D ultrasounds, as you can see. Well worth the $65.00 and 45 minute drive to the clinic!  ❤ ❤

15 Weeks tomorrow

It’s been a week. Overwhelming, personally and at work. I trudge on.

I’m getting tired again.. I think it must be a mental thing as opposed to a pregnancy thing. Or maybe a little of both. Who knows.

My left boob has been burning for several days now off and on. My nipples are hard a lot more often then they’ve ever been and they are SORE. This morning my towel brushed them and I almost yelped. No weight gain since my last check up if the scale at work is correct. I’ve been having frequent headaches. Hormones are a little whacky but with several things going on that’s to be expected. I woke up like ten times last night from heartburn, as well as night sweats. Could explain being exhausted I suppose.

Sunday afternoon I got all stressed and ended up a crying mess on my couch. Adam, our dog Cal, and I went on a walk in a local park a little bit after. The exercise and the serene forest really helped.

I’m so tired, I want to hermit, and I have no patience for anyone right now. So that’s what’s going on, lol.

14 weeks tomorrow

So a lot has happened in the last few days. I got the results of that gender prediction test.. it said .. BOY!

We’ll see if it was correct or not- Adam refuses to believe until September when we get our anatomy scan. I’d say it’s fairly accurate because if they get the gender wrong they have to give you your money back.. sooo..

I was happy to have those results. I told my Pepe on Friday afternoon. I don’t know if he heard me or not, he was pretty much comatose at that point. My Pepe passed away on Saturday.. it’s been hard. I was really really close to him and since I moved back from the city I went to college in I hung out with him constantly. Even when I was a little kid I was super close to him…

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That’s a screen shot from a home movie.. Pepe looking at me when I was a baby. That’s my brother next to me. I’m really sad and depressed about this, but I know in time the pain will fade. I’d like to think he heard that he was right and that I’m having a boy- that was his prediction. Last Wednesday was his birthday and he was kind of out of it, but came more “alive” by the end of the night. I said “Pepe, I’m 13 weeks today, isn’t that exciting?” and he said “Not for me…” He was really bummed he wasn’t going to be around to meet our little one. He then said the baby would be a tough little boy. I’m going to miss him so much but I’m glad I have a lot of stories, photos, and videos to share of him with my child/children.

Now for my first official… BUMP PICTURE!

I went to a maternity store today and this is my first maternity outfit.. other than a dress I bought from Target. As you can see, most of the weight I carry is in my boobs and my belly. My face is definitely fuller.. the last time I weighed myself (last last week) I hadn’t gained any weight since my last check up.. hopefully that trend continues.

This is what I wore to Pepe’s wake tonight. His funeral is tomorrow. I’m so thankful for Adam by my side and my family.